Pride

So, I have way too much pride. Had too much pride. Too much to take a stand for things, including myself. Too many chances I let slip through my fingers. Too much pride that I care so damn much about what everyone else thinks and I want to "prove them wrong". So much pride I had no confidence in myself, too much reliance on others and not enough courage to do something about it all. I feel sick now. I feel in so deep and looking back at all the different choices I could have made.......at what point am I going to have to fix all this? It's either fix it or hope it gets better. I am changing and I didn't see it coming.