Well

SO I'm reading this book and it says that people either believe things that happen are because of fate or because of choices. TO figure it out, you just ask yourself who you blame when things don't go your way? To you ask God, why, why, why, or do you say, why did I make these choices to get here, if only I had made a different decision. As a person of faith and a person who believes a lot in destiny, I suprised myself to relize that with all that is going on in my life right now I have been looking at myself and thinking what stupid and wrong decisions I had made and I wish I could go back and make different ones. SO, I think it goes back to the whole free will stuff. There is a plan for me, but it's up to me to make the right decisions to get there. I dont know. I can't help but feel like over the past few months.....few years....I've made a string of bad choices that are just now catching up with me. I wish I had rewind. I'm not sure how to get out of this mess.